Hello everyone my name is Pearl. I have lived with my mother, Hester Prynne for a while now and I am still very young so I do not work. I do not know who my father is because my mother will not tell me or anyone else.  I live in a Puritan society located in New England and I have always wondered why my mother had been tortured for what reason? What crime did she commit? I also wondered why that what she had done was made to be my fate as well. Sometimes I feel it was destined for me to be punished in this way.

Always it feels that I’m ignored because people believe I am and evil child. The townsfolk even believed I was a demon child “the talk of the neighboring townspeople, who, seeking vainly elsewhere for the child’s paternity, and observing some of her odd attributes, had given out that poor little Pearl was a demon offspring.”(Hawthorne; 80) I know I’m not evil I am just disappointed that people are mean and believe I am a problem child. I am tired of the eyes and it feels like people believe I am the child of a demon. My own mother even questioned if I was really Pearl her child “Art thou my child, in very truth?”(Hawthorne; 79) I answer her that I am her child Pearl. I still doubt at times that she believes me and this saddens me even more.

I dream of a day where I am looked at as normal and just unique. I have always wanted to go and jump in the flowers and make friends who understand me. I try my best to ignore those who get me riled up, but it is difficult for me to calm down. I sometimes need something to take my anger out on. It feels I’m misunderstood all the time. However, this one site I found gives me some relief every time I listen to it because it motivates me to keep on going. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lsSC2vx7zFQ. This site kept me going forward and I want you guys to use it as a tool to keep on moving forward.

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