I am pretty sure that this doctor that has been praised as a healer is trying to kill me. And I do not even know why he would want to kill me. Every day he has come in the tower where I was staying and torments my soul every day. (He now dug into the poor clergyman’s heart, like a miner searching for gold; or, rather, like a sexton delving into a grave, possibly in quest of a jewel that had been buried on the dead man’s bosom, but likely to find nothing save mortality and corruption.  Alas, for his own soul, if these were what he sought!)Pages 104, The Scarlet Letter

Occasionally he will hurt me physically but a majority of the time he will hurt me mentally. I see that he is enjoying hurting me and has no plans to stop making me feel bad anytime soon. He just continues to eat at my guilty conscience. I am pretty sure that he is using some of these methods from this site, http://marriage.ygoy.com/mental-and-emotional-abuse/ .

My body cannot take any more of his “treatments” that are supposed to be “helping” me heal. I feel like I want to kill myself. I found myself outside where Hester stood seven years ago. If feel like I should have stood up here with them, but I was terrified to up there that dreadful day. This guilty conscience has caused me to look frail and sickly and caused me to try and whip myself. I need to find a way to get away from this strange doctor who is continuing to torment me. I need to meet up with Hester and find out what we need to do because I am sure that I will die in the care of this man.