It was difficult because the people around me influence the way I am, but I have tried really hard to always think before I do something. Trying to give up my rut has a positive effect in my life. If I don’t scream and try to resolve the argument my speaking calmly sometimes they do the same, other times I have to point out that they are screaming when I am not and my they realize what they are doing and stop.  I am glad that I tried to give up this rut and have found it possible for some type of change. My life has not simplified, it is a constant struggle to stay calm and remember to think before I act but it is possible. It feels as if Emerson is speaking to me when he says, “All life is an experiment. The more experiments you make the better.” I have been experimenting different ways to see which best controls my temper and I have learned techniques that I will continue using.