I have a feeling that this will be the last thing I write ever again. I feel that my time on this earth has come to an end. The doctor, (or know known as Chillingworth, as I found that out from Hester), has pushed me to my last point. Now I do not have the will to live anymore. It saddens me that I have to leave this earth but I know there is no life left in me.

What really saddens me is that I will not be able to see my own daughter grow up, (yes everyone, my daughter is Pearl). She is such a beautiful girl and deserves to be showered with attention every second of every day. I will also dearly miss getting a chance to be with the beautiful woman Hester. She deserves a man who will treat her right.

I have come to accept my death by looking at a site with cancer patients who have come to accept their own demise. It brought hope to me that I am leaving this earth on a good note. If anyone else needs help or encouragement if you are going through the same thing should look at this site http://www.huffingtonpost.com/andrew-kneier-phd/accepting-death-and-letti_b_770398.html.

My last sermon I plan to do will blow everybody away. I was planning to call everybody out and insult a couple of people before I passed on, but now that I have come to my senses I have thought against it. I plan on leaving everybody wanting to learn more about God and all he has done for us. I know people will be sad but they should not be. All I am doing is going to heaven a couple of years before them. The best part of all of this is that I can finally leave the clutches of that devil Chillingworth. “Ha, tempter!  Methinks thou art too late!” answered the minister, encountering his eye, fearfully, but firmly.  “Thy power is not what it was!  With God’s help, I shall escape thee now!”(pg. 198)