Till Death Do Us Part

Now that Chillingworth gave me permission to tell dimmesdale who he really is I’m going to. I think if I tell him he will feel a little bit better. They told me he was in the forest so that’s where we went. Pearl and me went to see him. I just don’t like seeing him this weak. Over the past years he has had a dramatic change. His face is really different and it hurts me to see him like this.

I love him with all my heart, but I know we could never be.  I wish things were different between us. My life has change and it changed for the worst. I mean I love Pearl but now that I have her I can’t be with the man I love. We both know that we can’t be together and I can tell it’s hurting her the most. He has so much on his mind, I’m scared for him.

I really just want him to be happy, that’s all. Even if were not together he will always be a part of me because of our child. I cherish every moment we have had together because there a only few. We were supposed to run away together but everything got switched up in a short period of time. We was going to be a family, him, Pearl, and Me.I really wish our plans would’ve worked. God plans everything for a reason, so I guess it wasn’t meant to be.

I don’t ever think I will be happy without him .I’m happy with pearl, but who can I grow old with now? Now that he is gone all my glory and joyful wishing is all gone now. My soul and sprit died with him that day. Maybe I’ll see him next life time.

Please Don’t Judge Me

I can’t stand the fact of not being with my family. I worked so hard to get where I’m at, with my job. I’m very good at what I do. This is too much for me to handle. Sometimes I feel like I’m going to explode. I try to push this to the back of my head but it just makes it worst. I need to vent to someone.

It’s late at night and I can’t sleep. I barely get any sleep nowadays. The sin I have committed is eating me up inside .I’m outside now walking to the punishment platform .Maybe if I confess this out loud I will feel a little better. I really want to tell everyone what I did so I can start my life over. I want to help Hester and Pearl get there selves together.

As I was standing on the platform I heard footsteps. They didn’t notice me but I recognized them. I tried to speak but words wouldn’t come out. I wanted to confess my sin to him but I just couldn’t bring myself to do it. I wish I had the courage and ability to confess the sin that she committed. I think I just need more time to get myself together so that I will be stronger again. I’m so weak, it hurts my heart. I walk around with my hand held on my heart. I wonder if people notice, I know Pearl notices because she always looks at me weird.

I wonder sometimes how my life got turned upside down. Overthinking becomes so stressful. I’ve never been this sick and worried in my life. Its so dark and cold out here ,and all I can do is think. I just want to be happy with my family and have a good job, but that cannot happen because of my sin.

Hello again my fellow friends, even though i am not sure if anyone is reading this. A lost has happened since i came back as a doctor. I heave been looking everywhere to catch the guy that fell in love with my Hester and gave her pearl, years went past and i still haven’t found out, soon Hester tells me that the father is not other than Mr. Dimmesdale, how could the pastor commit such a bad and sinister sin. I was so upset and heated i wanted to kill him in his sleep, but i knew that would be wrong and i would be a likely suspect, since i am his room mate. I had to wait for a perfect time to do it, i soon heard that Hester and Dimmesdale, also Pearl will be running away after the sermon, i couldn’t believe what i heard, they think running away will stop me but i think they are wrong.

The day has finally come and i cant wait to finally win. NO! NO! NO!, everything is going downhill, everyone now knows that i am Hester’s lost husband and know i can no longer hide from these people. I wonder that the out come will be now, Why me! this cant be happening No!. If Dimmesdale dies now then that means i have lost. I don’t want this, I can’t lose. With that my dear friend has died with is lover and daughter by his side, after everything has calmed down i left that village and gave my every last penny to Pearl. you may wonder why I would do such a thing like this but i still love Pearl as if she was my own and my dear Hester i still love and loaf you but nothing more can be done. I am a old man so i wont be lasting unlike you i wonder how you are doing and how Pearl is, i will keep sending you gifts even after i have pasted on. I love you and I’m sorry.

Today is election day in the town. The townspeople had to select a new governor. Dimmesdale, Pearl  and I were planning on living to go to Europe. But somehow Chillingworth was also a passager!! How did he know? Did someone tell him? But who? But I could not worry about that now. As the townspeople walk over to hear the Rev. give his speech I see him, Dimmesdale. As I Watch him Mistress Hibbins comes over and tells me waht Dimmesdale is going to tell everyone!! I didn’t want to believe her. As I watch Dimmesdale give his speech I see that he looks awful. He look nothing like the man I knew him to be. Dimmesdale had ended his speech and noiw the party has started. Then Dimmesdale has pulled Pearl and I aside. And we go to the scaffold, the place were I stood in front of the town and was judge by everyone. But as were here Dimmesdale finally reveals himself to everyone! Pearl my baby girl finally knew the truth, Dimmesdaleis her father. And the most beautiful moment happened, she gives her father a kiss and then the most horrible moment happen the man that i love, Dimmesdale had died. And when Dimmesdale died a part of me died with him….   

I am Dimmesdale. I graduated from Oxford making me very intelligent. Look at what a great school it is: http://www.ox.ac.uk/. In England I am greatly respected for my intelligence and my eloquence and persuasiveness in my sermons and that respect had transferred with me to America. Here I am one of the reverends of the town, a hypocritical reverend but that’s my secret. One day I came across the most beautiful Puritan woman i had ever laid eyes on with her “figure of perfect elegance” (Hawthrone 37). I’m a reverend, yes I know, but temptations really got the best of me after Hester and I fell in love. Here’s the saddest part: we committed the terrible sin of fortification, leaving Hester pregnant. Nobody would ever suspect me to be the father and everyone knows Hester is unmarried. For her, well our sin, she was forced to stand on a scaffold for 3 hours, even with her baby Pearl, and she must wear the letter A on her breast for the rest of her life. I was even apart of her public shaming. Knowing what I’ve done and the fact that my sins have gone unnoticed and unpunished eats away at me everyday. My guilty conscious has been stronger than ever and has started to take a heavy toll on my well-being. However, I simply cannot find it in me to confess my terrible sin. I’m a minister! If I let everyone in on my secret, all my respect will be thrown down the drain. At the same time, keeping the secret is killing me more than its helping me. I’ve become very weak, pale, and ill because I feel so terrible. Hester endured all the punishment alone while it should have been the both of us. Everyday this terrible thought taunts me. I’m torn on what i should do. If the townspeople find out that Pearl is my baby, they might kill me. Such a minister like me should not sin so terribly. Even though my health is declining, I cannot fathom letting everyone know the great sin I’ve committed..

Hey, it is Dimmesdale again, and I am back to rant about my problems again. A lot of time has passed and I have grown sick. I am sick of myself and It is killing me. My head is spinning out of control and I cannot keep myself together. All I can think about is this poor girl, Hester Prynne. If you couldn’t already tell, I am the father of her child and that is probably what is making me sick. I cannot stand to watch her suffer this terrible thing that I have done to her. But then again, was it me that did this to her, or did she bring this upon herself? I am not sure which, but I do love her and I should not abandon her like this. The governor nearly took poor Hester’s child from here, arguing that it was a demon child. I had to step in to argue that Pearl was a gift from God. I managed to save Pearl, but oh what a shame it is that the townsfolk think so highly of me! I am ashamed for what I have done, but I cannot just jump up and tell everyone; if I did, they would kill us both! This is such an awful predicament! On top of all this, I have this very strange man who will not stop tormenting me. I am afraid that he is on to Hester and I. Who is this man and why does he continue to pester me? What does he want so bad that he must constantly bother me? I do not get it. Why must I be the center for torment here! This is not fair; I need to see Hester, this is just getting out of hand. Also, I have been looking at this site: http://www.wikihow.com/Get-Rid-of-a-Stalker. I have been getting ideas as to how to get rid of this strange stalker.

Hey, it is Dimmesdale again, and I am back to rant about my problems again. A lot of time has passed and I have grown sick. I am sick of myself and It is killing me. My head is spinning out of control and I cannot keep myself together. All I can think about is this poor girl, Hester Prynne. If you couldn’t already tell, I am the father of her child and that is probably what is making me sick. I cannot stand to watch her suffer this terrible thing that I have done to her. But then again, was it me that did this to her, or did she bring this upon herself? I am not sure which, but I do love her and I should not abandon her like this. The governor nearly took poor Hester’s child from here, arguing that it was a demon child. I had to step in to argue that Pearl was a gift from God. I managed to save Pearl, but oh what a shame it is that the townsfolk think so highly of me! I am ashamed for what I have done, but I cannot just jump up and tell everyone; if I did, they would kill us both! This is such an awful predicament! On top of all this, I have this very strange man who will not stop tormenting me. I am afraid that he is on to Hester and I. Who is this man and why does he continue to pester me? What does he want so bad that he must constantly bother me? I do not get it. Why must I be the center for torment here! This is not fair; I need to see Hester, this is just getting out of hand. Also, I have been looking at this site: http://www.wikihow.com/Get-Rid-of-a-Stalker. I have been getting ideas as to how to get rid of this strange stalker.

Creepy Stalker Dude

Authur Dimmesdale’s Last Sermon

Today I present my sermon for the Election Day. I’m actually kind of nervous because after I present my sermon we have this big parade, which I would have to walk around and wave to the townspeople, but one problem is that I can hardly stand up. I am really weak right now that is why I have to lean on something so it can hold me up. After I present my sermon and the parade Hester, Pearl, and I are going to get on the boat that will take us to Europe. During my sermon Hester found out that Chillingworth was going to be on the boat with us. I find this very weird because of what Hester told me when we were in the woods. I might decide to tell the secret that has been killing since seven years ago. I need to tell this secret because “I am most miserable! Pg.151” I am going to tell it in front of the whole town after my speech. Nobody knows but me not even Hester knows. I hope that after I tell the secret the townspeople will accept me for who I am and what happened. I’m very nervous though I do not know how I should tell the townspeople. I cannot just blurt it out to them then they will be very surprised. I know that Hester will be very proud of me because she will not be in this alone. Even though people already accepted her for what she has done. They also think that Hester has redeemed herself and being a really big help to the community. I am still kind of nervous though because I think the townspeople will be very shocked with me. Well it is only one way to find out what they think of me after this sermon. Hopefully they still think of me as the same Authur Dimmesdale.

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I can hardly believe what happened Dimmsdale said ”She is right. God has made

this mother and this strange child to be together” there has to be something wrong.

I am truly hopeful that he did not have adultery with hester who is my wife. The rest

of the town must think he is an angel while I think that something went on between Hester

which then means that Pearl is his daughter. My next move is to find out who the real father

is if it’s Dimmsdale or someone else then I am going to get revenge on them. I am so excited that

I am going to get revenge on them. I am so excited that I am going to get revenge on whoever

committed adultery because my wife was unfaithful and cheated on me. I am going to try and be

Dimmsdale’s personal doctor so that I can ask him or he can confess that he committed adultery, then

I would get revenge on him and then I could go back to peace and my regular life. I am nervous about

hester finding out about me spying on her, Pearl and Dimmsdale. I also shouldn’t have send hester alot to

America by herself.

Character Blog 2- Jonathan Bossman

I am now at the point in my life where I feel like things will go well for me. I have my lovely lady Hester and my beautiful daughter Pearl. We have been through a lot and I can finally say that we are one. Hester took off her A to show how we are reconnected. She says she feels free. Pearl on the other hand didn’t like it. She had a fit down by the water. I hope she will be able to really connect with me. She looks so much like. I cannot believe no one could tell.

We meet in the forest far away from the people. I think it is the best place to be. That’s the only place where we could be alone. I am here at the Election Day about to preach my sermon and then we are going to leave. I think the Old World would be better to raise Pearl, “It had been determined between them that the Old World, with its crowds and cities, offered them a more eligible shelter and concealment than the wilds of New England or all America…” [168] Hester agreed so that is what we are going to do. I am actually nervous to be here at Election Day. I guess it’s because I am anticipating for later on today. I plan to show my A on the scaffold to everyone in the town. I’m not sure how that is going to go but I hope it goes well. Wish me luck!

I looked up some websites on how to deal with being nervous. The website I found was http://www.nativeremedies.com/ailment/signs-of-nervousness-info.html . I told me that I should take a deep breath by breathing in through my nose and out through my mouth.  I just have to prepare myself and stop any negative thoughts that come through my mind. Be brave Dimmesdale.