Vash Young once said “All my life I had feared to-morrow, until I decided to have faith and to live to-day in courage.” This means that Vash Young is saying that she was always afraid of what could happen in the future but you have to have faith and courage and live in the present because who knows what is going to happen in the future. Failing is my biggest fear because my future depend on what I do in the present.

Not having enough money can make a really big impact on whether you go to college or not. For example you need a lot of money to pay off to go to college except if you have a scholarship. This means if I don’t get a scholarship it will be extremely hard for me to get into college, since my parents don’t have enough money to actually pay for college. To go to college you will need a lot of money or have a lot of determination to be successful and be excellent at school you can get a scholarship.

Your future is very dependent on whether you have an education or not and if you fail at school your dreams can be shattered. For example if you are not good enough to go to college, then you wont have an education and you wont have the life that you wanted. This means that your future is dependent on the what you do in the present. If you fail in life your future will be like a mirror of what happened because of your failure.

Failing today will affect my tomorrow. Failing can affect your opportunity to go to college and as a result can affect your life. Your future is dependent on a lot of things. For example money has a very big impact on whether or not you go to college and your determination for success also has a very big impact on whether you go to college or not. If you go to college that has an impact on what your future can be. Fear is not an obstacle it’s just another reason to keep trying.

“Failed plans should not be interpreted as a failed vision. Visions don’t change, they are only refined. Plans rarely stay the same, and are scrapped or adjusted as needed. Be stubborn about the vision, but flexible with your plan.” John C. Maxwell says. I agree with his statement. I try to think through his perspective, but shame myself when I don’t try hard enough to work toward my goal because although I am only 13, I have grand plans for my life. I plan to a high school for the arts, attend FIT college in New York City, live in a beautiful neighborhood, get married, and have adorable children. Even though this plan may be refined over time, it will basically stay the same. As a grow, I expect to follow this plan. It’s almost like an easy-to-follow map to keep my life on track. My biggest fear is that this plan will be ruined by an unexpected event, and make my life like a roller coaster, with unforeseen twists and turns. I wouldn’t mind a few surprises, but I have goals in mind that I fear I may not be able to reach if my life takes another path.

When I was ten, I heard about the Fashion Institute of Technology. It seemed like a dream. Right out of a barbie movie, where I could have the chance to be the star. Since I loved drawing, painting, and shopping, I thought, “I could be a fashion designer!” To attend college in the heart of the city, learn about fashion, be exposed to different trends, noises, sounds and cultures made me dizzy with excitement. When we drove to the big apple around Thanksgiving time later that year, I visited the FIT museum to look around. I was astounded by all the history, artifacts, beautiful clothing, and exotic labels. There, I discovered Lauren Bacall. She was a beautiful old Hollywood actress and fashionista, born in the 1920’s. Her clothing was on display. Her Bacall and the Boys fall 1960’s fall fashion preview was playing on a projector.  I watched her movies, read some of her autobiography, Lauren Bacall, By Myself (personally signed, thanks to my grandmother) and analyzed her perfect eyebrows. Then I began to think, “Why can’t I be like her?”

That’s where my plan began. Every night after, I had dreams about college. Endless fun, cute outfits, and my name in lights. I craved to be in the city. The noise, smells, and the ora of it all made butterflies dance in my stomach. It seemed so perfect and achievable, but somewhere, buzzing in the back of my mind, I knew it was unrealistic. I directed my thoughts towards the positive aspects of a flexible future, but was disheartened to know that my life wouldn’t be as glamorous as Bacall’s movies.

Now, I have a slightly different way of seeing things. I will work towards smaller goals. One of my goals is to be more accepting of an unplanned fate. I will close my eyes and try my best to go where the wind blows me. Sometimes I confuse myself, because I am very flexible with the changing of small plans. If I wanted to wear a dress to school but it was in the washing machine, I would never throw a fit. Even if a family vacation was cancelled, I wouldn’t be too sad about it. But I will try to let go of my fear of messing up my overall plan, one small goal at a time. Like John Maxwell says, “Failed plans should not be interpreted as a failed vision.” I will try my hardest to do as these words say, and to embrace wherever life takes me.